reality is setting in

if you've been around me at all recently, you've seen my bottom lip sticking out like a 3 year old's whenever it is mentioned that my firstborn is going to be in high school this fall. suddenly, "this fall" is monday. i still am not sure where the time went. people always told me it would and i figured they could be right but oh my goodness, has it ever flown by. he already has a book to study for his learner's permit test for pete's sake. yesterday afternoon we went to the school so blake could walk through his schedule. this wouldn't have been a big deal if he went to high school where greg and i did, but this place is huge. first we stopped in the office to sign in so they wouldn't think we were terrorists. there we met the freshman principal, who seemed very nice. i liked him instantly because he was wearing his lunch on his shirt. he said this happened because he was trying to eat lunch and hold his newborn baby at the same time. maybe i should've told him next time he turns around his newborn will be starting high school. i didn't think of it then or i would've. next stop was the counselor's office where blake got a current printout of his schedule and found out that a friend of ours from church is going to be his homeroom teacher. yay! a familiar face first thing in the morning will be a beautiful thing. (if not for him, for his mother.) map of the school in hand, blake walked through his schedule no problem. his only problem was his mom - he wasn't excited about me having the camera along even though i never took a picture in front of another soul but us. if i'd been blogging since his birth, this would not be a big deal. his brothers got a tour of the place and had lots of comments on how big it is. they also were awed by the fact that there is a store in there. and a gameroom. and jukeboxes. luke has decided that next year when he goes to high school (aauuuggghhh!) he will either need to have grown or he'll need to request a bottom locker because he can't see the numbers on the top ones. i'm taking him back on friday because they're having another freshman orientation. and he'll get to walk through his day again. anything to make him more sure of where he is and what he's doing. he's already more confident across the board than i ever was or than i am now for that matter. but the more sure of things he is on monday, the less likely i am to have a meltdown. ok so that's not entirely true. but i'll do my best.